I wanted to take this moment…pause the rotation of the earth if you will…and just tell you something. Maybe a couple somethings.
I know that I am a pain in the rear end sometimes. I know that not everyone would be able to swallow spending 24 hours 7 days a week in the same house as me…heck, there are some people that can’t stand even reading this blog, much less actually being around me…but you? You chose me. You love me. You are my friend and do it with a smile. A sweet smile that makes your eyes crinkle. And you know how that crinkle makes me feel.
I just want you to know that I savor you. I let the time spent with you melt in my heart. And there are numerous times a day that I stop myself from doing and focus all my energy on making my mind freeze a little memory. I try to remember that hug in the kitchen where you pulled me & Will close for a family hug and those moments when you make me believe for a split second that I am the most beautiful girl in the world. I try to remember the sound of your voice when you are on the other end of the phone telling me to buckle up and drive safe. I try to remember the sheepish little grin on your face when you admit that you found my secret stash of chocolate and ate it all. I love all of our memories together. I hope I remember every single one. Even the bad ones because they make the cherished ones so much sweeter.
I know that I have always told you to say “I love you today” instead of “I love you forever” or “I love you always”….mostly because I was afraid. I was scared of tomorrow. And what it would hold. I was afraid of losing you and I just wanted to live in the moment of now. I wanted to think about this wonderful darling moment where we were together and happy instead of the unknown of the future. But I want you to know that even if I never get another second with you, I will be filled and thankful and 100% in love with you for the rest of my life. I want you to know that I am not afraid anymore.
And more than anything, I want you to know that I love you today. And I will love you tomorrow. And the next day. And the next day. And the day after that. For all my days. And for all of yours. And for every day after that.
Just wanted to tell you that.
xo – your girl