Today is my induction date. It is planned for 7:30 pm.
I would be completely lying if I didn’t say that there was a side of me that is terrified. A part of me that worries and is full of self-doubt and oozing pure FEAR. This experience is the unknown for me. the great obyss of what-ifs. the unlit road of anxiety over possibilities.
I also find it completely ironic that I am attempting to bring this baby into the world on the week of Thanksgiving. This is the week where we celebrate those brave strong people….probably in a similar mindset as mine….who came to a foreign land and learned how to do something new…something different…something completely out of their comfort zone. Was it hard? Absolutely. Were they scared? Yes. Did they have moments of weakness and fear and self-doubt? Probably. But the thing is…they prevailed. They pushed on. They worked hard and surrounded themselves with the best people who knew the territory. And then at their harvest….after they looked back at their blessings….they realized that expressing their gratitude should be their first and foremost task.
So that is where I am.
I have realized that I too need to pour out my heart…praising my God. Thanking Him is my way of being content and satisfied in this harvest.
I am thankful that I have an amazing doctor who supports VBACs and is someone I can trust.
I am thankful that I am carrying a baby that is healthy and strong.
I am thankful that Will was given 12 ‘bonus’ days of extra one-ness attention and special moments that make my heart soar.
I am thankful that Jeremy can be home this coming week.
I am thankful that my family and friends get to meet my new son on such a special week.
I am thankful that technology and medicine and science are available to me to help keep me and the baby safe.
I am thankful that inductions and caesareans exist.
I am thankful that my body is feeling really really good even overdue.
I am thankful that you, my friends, have been patiently supporting, praying and encouraging me as I wait on my little guy to arrive.
I am thankful. through and through.
p.s. Jeremy will be posting regular Instagram updates on the baby progress if you want to follow along! We are really so thrilled that we have such a cool tool to keep in touch with you, friends, and family. You can find us [email protected]….and if you don’t have IG, you can see the updates on Facebook too.